I try hard not to think about the what ifs and should and could ofs because they break me. Just wish there was a Time Machine because not seeing you is so torturous. I just miss you all the time 💔
I love you more than all the stars in the universe and wish I could tell you in person ♥️💔♥️
29th September 2024
This is just so unfair.
We shouldn’t be the ones watching your boy grow up to be a carbon copy of you, we shouldn’t be the ones holding him tight when he wants a cuddle. I feel like we have all been brutally robbed of a life we will now never know.
We smile, we laugh and we make happy memories… But it is stained with a bitter and unrelenting echo of what was. The overpowering ache of grief. The never ending hurt of missing you.
This will never be fair, you deserve to be here. You deserve to feel how loved you are. It isn’t possible to cry any more, it is instead just nothingness, an abyss of awareness that you will never be earth side once more and we must continue on without you.
I’ll never stop saying how unfair it is.
26th July 2024