Days are so much harder when I wake up and remember you’re gone all over again. There’s so much you’re not getting to see physically, so many things I want your opinion on, so many things we could rant about, so many songs that are you, so many signs that you could freak out at with me, so many chocolate milks... so much guidance you gave me.
All this change and you’re not here to see it. And it makes it so bittersweet... Life will never be the same without you, it’s like the sun shines but I’m forever wearing sunglasses. Everything’s lost it’s colour. You’re my motivation d... my inspiration to carry on. Keep fighting... Fulfill your dreams and goals, keep you with me forever... “they promised that they’d always be tight til the end”. So many memories flooding back recently... So many things that make the pain so much deeper. So many overlooks so many mistakes and regrets. But I promise you, til my dying day I’ll be righting them... I’ll be showing you and you’ll be with me. I’ll make damn sure of it I’ll never let your memory die d. I know you’re in some kind of heaven because you were an angel man. A gift sent from such a divine source. I love you with all my heart and I’m so sorry that I didn’t understand the way I do now, I wish you’d gave me time to grow up and go through some shit. But I knew the lessons you were teaching me and you’re still teaching me now, giving me your endless guidance and love.
I love you d
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