I knew it was going to be challenging. Living without you. For jay. For us. But the added challenges of certain people...I know you couldn't bear anymore and I don't blame you babe, feel it myself...but I wish I didn't have to be dealing with it. Car crash after car crash and I'm not even out driving. You never stop being my world, my stars, my universe, I'm sorry you weren't loved and treated in the way you deserved to be by those that said they love you. I'll keep trying babe cos it's all for you. I love you hugely and I miss you my gorgeous girlie xxxxxxxx