That tune always makes me feel close to you. “There are no words that can express how I feel, ya never kept a secret always stayed real” “I wish I could take the pain away, if you can make it through the night there’s a brighter day, everything’ll be alright if you hold on, it’s a struggle everyday gotta roll on...” D this is just never ending. It literally... Never... Ends. I have no clue what I’m searching for to mend my broken heart man. Real talk I just don’t know how to get over you not being here. I’m not even ready to let it go. Not one little bit and I’m afraid to. I don’t want to? I don’t even know why I write anymore, I miss you. I just don’t know what to accept... How can I say it’s ok that you’re not here with us? Your son? You were such a light in my life... My chosen sister and my hearts just broken. I really do just miss.. you. Sorry. I just need to look over and glance into those big brown eyes!!! It can’t be accepted right? Would you blame me if it was the other way around? I don’t think so. I never will, and that’s just the way it is now. Can not wait for the day we reunite although I have much left to do here and hopefully a lengthy, healthy life. I have shit to do here babe. You have left me with a few tasks indefinitely. Some introverted, others not so. But my god I can only give thanks for the strength you instilled in me. You were such a gift to my own growth, I wish you were here. Physically aching some nights and that’s the truth. I love you my graceful, wise, beautiful, loving, open minded, caring and motherly big sister. How my life was changed when you were in it, and the way you’ve taught me to appreciate the times of love. Family isn’t always blood. Sleep tight, come to me if you have any spare flight time. Also, stop playing my guitar when it’s downstairs... It gets a bit spooky sometimes ya know? Lol. Love you babe. Miss you infinity and a day and May your soul live on forever in us all. You made me, but you’ve broken me too. My sis. ❤️❤️