How do I not give up Né? How do I not just throw the towel in now? Am I gonna get to 10 years and still be struggling? Everyone says I’ll learn to deal with it but I don’t think I’m ever gonna. I can’t let you go and it’s killing me to hold on. I have no choice I can’t let you go. The more that time goes by the worse it gets... I need to hear you, hug you, love you... Just even for one night... I’d never let go... I let you down and I cannot ever continue like I didn’t. Please just come back... Please... I’ll never take advantage again, I’ll never let you down, even if it killed me I’ll do whatever you need me to... Just reverse this and come back. I can’t be here without you, I can’t breathe right since you left. Everything is getting worse. I need you so bad and nobody understands how I feel and you left me in a sea of pain, gut wrenching, heart breaking pain and it’s alienating... I miss you so much and I can’t even say I could’ve stopped this. Because I’m where you were, and I don’t think I can’t defeat my own demons let alone anyone else’s. They’re so strong. I love you sis. I wish you were here, you’re my happiness and my heart has been smashed to smithereens since you left. I’m not me anymore. I’m not ever gonna be me again, not without you. I’m done trying to fill this void you’ve left me with, I love you and this pain proves it.