The silence that fills the void of you is deafening, seeing your picture kills me. Hearing your laugh pains my heart and I’m not getting any closer to being ok with this. Everything is going wrong since you flew, but you’re equipping me with tools to get through slowly and surely. You’re showing me that I’M doing the work to get life on track, you’re showing me how strong you and I are. We can get through anything. I know you’re not gone but I miss the physical you. She was just as powerful, but even Dené Marley in a human sense was way too good for this world, much too pure and beautiful. Inside and out. They say the good die young and it rings so true, you’ve gone “home” back to where you do not have the things that were clinging onto you that were here where I am. You’ve left us on earth, but you’ve released and returned back to where you belong. A place of only love, peace and acceptance. I’m going through a personal and spiritual shift/growth right now and I know you’re helping me cope with the intensity, I sat with you at the spot for a long while today and for the first time in a while I spoke to your pictures, I felt you in the breeze, I felt your energy beside me on the bench. For the first time in a while I cried tears over you. Tears I very much try not to let erupt, because they do not stop. I know you’re with me and you will never leave me just like I will never let your memory die. I am ready to let you fly sis... But I’m scared to let you go. I know I’m keeping you here, and I know you’re keeping me in a loop we both don’t want me in. I just wish I could hear your reply to this stuff I’m thinking. I wish you could wrap your arms across my neck and I could feel your hair on my cheek. I wanna hear you saying that I’m not going crazy, take your wisdom in again once more. I’ve never felt so far from you, but yet so close and it’s so conflicting, I will never be the same without you, and I’m grieving for the US. The YOU. The ME I was when I was with you. I’m realising this will be with me for life and I won’t just wake up one day ok. My pain is you now, but you’re also my reason Né. You are my whole reason. You’re my truth, my strength. I know now that we were just mirrors for each other. I miss you so much. But I will fight for the US. The FAMILY. The LOVE & BOND. I will fight hard and make life great, so you can finally be free. I know you no longer need me to protect you, because you’re in a “place” that no one needs to be protected from. You will always be mine and I will always be yours. Forever and ever. I’ll never stop missing you, I’ll never stop talking to you, I’ll never stop sharing those brief moments of happiness with you too. You’ll always have a piece of my broken heart that nobody could ever reclaim. I love you my big little sister. Nothing will ever change us now, and there’s nothing stopping me either. I will NEVER let you leave my heart. 🖤😪