Seriously babe. I can't fucking do this without you. Here. Physically. It hurts every damn day. Just pulling it together for what? Nothing changes. I'm tired of living like this. Im tired of living without you. It's not ok. It's not alright. My entire world has been obliterated. Why the FUCK am I still here man? It's tedious. It's lonely. It fucking hurts. Every damn fucking day. From the moment I wake to the moment I sleep. For the rest of my life. I miss you so so so much pie. I love you my gorgeous girlie. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry xxxxxx