Lol just scroll down to oct 2019 to see how I’m feeling. You got me caught in a loop pie, saying, thinking, feeling the same shit over and over and over. I feel so stuck. So decimated. I can’t even find all the pieces to glue together so I can pretend to be whole. I read and listen to stuff about grief and acceptance, growth of life etc but I can’t get past you not being here. I’ve had to readjust to life, desensitise myself to words, situations and actions. I haven’t stopped having to learn how to ‘cope’ without you. This just isn’t any fun without you. I miss you pie. I love you ❤️❤️💔💔💔