I’m having a hard time grieving the loss of you recently. All the time. Never stops. I’m working so hard to make life good for us, but yet the closer I get to that the more daunting having a non traumatic and non chaotic existence gets, because that’s all I knew for such a long time. I miss being able to share my everything with you, I miss knowing I always had you backing me, with you, I was never alone… Since you left, I’ve been so alone. It’s hurting Né. When will it ever not hurt this badly? Everyone says it’s get better with time… It just hasn’t. I still cry just as hard, I still feel just as guilty when I’m happy or crossing off life experiences and reaching milestones. I’m still grieving the life I thought we’d have with you here. It is hurting. I am hurting. I just don’t know how to heal. The love we shared, makes the hole you left much too great to heal from. I miss you.