Everything’s so bitter sweet. I wish you were here. I wish you could be happy with me right now. Even when good news comes it’s tinged with missing you. You’re meant to be seeing this, you’d be so proud of me Dené... I had this with you, I had this proudness. I still do, everything you do, everything you did... You keep me so strong. You keep me sane. But you make me weak and I lost my mind the day I lost you. It makes no sense. I can’t imagine how it’d be if you were here anymore, I can’t remember what you smelt like or how your hair felt on my face when you hugged me... I can only go by memory. But I don’t need all that... I need you. Just you, You’re not here and I still need you. I’ll always need you. Selfish I know... Stay with me, smile with me, grow with me like we did when you was by my side. Evie misses you. She loves you. I love you. I just wish you could come home.