I swore I'd never share this picture due to how embarrassingly in friendship love we were. In this particular photo if you can't tell by the colour of my cheeks (Né looking like a pure cutie as always) we were very, very drunk. Just one night we decided to have some pink Lambrini she'd been saving for us, and anyone who knows me I hate physicalities like hugging and touching in general, but this photo shows how comfortable I was with my sister, she was such an infectious calm. Like a growth of love inside you, and she always planted the seeds. Even a touch, which normally I would hate, meant a lot. We fought like cat and dog me and Dené but family clash and that's just how it was and we accepted it. Learnt to love that part too as painful as it sometimes could be. But I specifically remember how that little peck made me feel that night. It opened up a lot in terms of trust with her and at this point she'd be my full time carer (lol) for almost 3 years. After this day, I could walk into her living room butt naked and neither of us would care. To the point of having a communal OPEN shower in our hotel room when she took me on my first trip to Amsterdam. What a memory I am so lucky to hold so close to me.

"It's love Rose". When you hugged me tight in the middle of Amsterdam, opening my world every day. Exposed me to a different part of the world, not the place with such boring, numbing routine. I still remember the night before we were at your mums in the room that was previously a rave room the night before, oh you curled her hair so beautifully the night before. The night before the flight and we sat in the secret room for a while and just sat. We didn't even do anything. Eventually went to bed staring at each other, it had to be love right? Just absolute true love, nothing weird. The tears we shed together for the hate of this world... The times we'd soothe a very unhappy godson at ridiculous times, I didn't even realised I'd passed out but I'd always wake up with a blanket on me. I'm just rambling.

This photo.
I will always, always love you my beautiful, angel big sister.